why i try not to think about it – reason #2
there are too many unanswerable questions. how? when? most importantly, who? it stirs up impatience and casts doubt with each passing day. it makes you want to take matters into your own hands – read cleo, look up horoscopes, flirt, become anorexic, change into someone you’re not. the “ladder” theory becomes your personal philosophy on relationships and you neatly categorise your friends according to their positions on your ladder, hence never looking at them in the same light ever again.
worst of all, you loathe God for not showing you a glimpse of the future. so why bother?