do i have atypical depression?
sometimes, i think i do.
other times, i think i’m just being whiny. unreasonable. hard on myself. attention-seeking.
and yet, sometimes i think i have atypical depression.
after all, i’ve gained a ridiculous amount of weight over the last 3 years. i’ve found it hard to concentrate. i go through phases where i think i am completely worthless, unworthy of anything good that i have. i find it hard to make decisions. i’m constantly tired. i feel rejected. trapped. my academic performance has suffered. and i am generally a less likeable person than i perceive that i used to be.
so maybe i’m just emo. and lazy.
but sometimes i think i could do with some help.
i don’t know. i just want to graduate, even on my dismal performance. my growing lack of interest in medicine. i don’t know.
this is so totally the wrong course for me.