what does it mean when not knowing the answers to questions thrown at you no longer evoke a sense of panic, but instead illicit nothing more than apathy? does it mean you’ve given up?
but to give up would involve loss, maybe even grief. all i have is a decision whether to watch a football match that is of no consequence to me or to work on a report that i don’t care about.
i don’t hate what i’m doing. i just don’t like it anymore. being lukewarm really sucks.