you know one of those days when things go exceedingly well, only to come crashing down right at the last moment?
i had a call like that yesterday.
anyway, it just totally killed my mood today. i originally wanted to be good and enthusiastic and stay at work till later in the afternoon (eventhough i don’t have to) so i could jump at the opportunity to do more procedures or assist in more surgeries.
but now i’m just sad and full of regret at the what ifs and could have beens of this morning.
the worst thing is, i feel like how i used to feel whenever DK, my famous general surgeon lecturer, told me off – like a piece of dirt, underserving of life itself.
sigh. gonna get some spiked orange juice, watch modern family and sleep for the rest of the day.